Finding Favor in 2020
As 2020 comes to an end, I can't help but look back on the changes, the tragedies, the heartache, but above all...the BLESSINGS. Don't think for one minute my heart doesn't break for those that have lost and suffered. I pray strength for you daily. But I know that God doesn't leave us there. There is always a greater season to come and this year will be no different. At the end of December 2019, I too had lost. As I packed up the last box of what I had so tiredly worked for years before, I couldn't help but wonder if my time with Homegrown was coming to an end. Sitting here writing today, I realize what all 2020 brought me. It brought me a new beginning. If nothing else this year, it brought me peace, what I was so desperately longing for. I have continued the path of finding myself and who I am in Christ. Not on a surface level mindset, but a deep rooted knowledge. The friends that God placed in my life to carry me through this year was unexplainable. I discovered things I don't like about myself and what holds me back from loving fiercely. I realized the work I was doing to keep busy instead of becoming who I set out to be. I'm working on letting go of the fear that I might miss out on opportunities if I don't take control, but instead having the faith that I can pursue my goals while waiting for things to mature. Most of all I am learning to rest. I am learning to un-clutter my mind and be present with my family in our home. Nothing can refuel me like they can.
When I took in the last breath inside my shop, it immediately followed with fresh, much needed air. So I have found favor in 2020. I found favor in myself, but most of all, seeing the favor God has on my life every year and 2020 was no exception!